Destiny

It's in the destiny. Yes, we may feel bad about it, but it's nothing that we can do, but to live with it, no matter how much painful it is. I have some nice memories of my past, and also bitter ones, which sometimes haunt me in my loneliness, at night. Howsoever I try to act strong, the memories never leave me, and tiny drops of water comes from the eyes. In my age, most people around me are happy, well settled, married, also with children. Why it happened with me.. Just trying to smile, hiding my tears, though it's not that easy. Truly need a companion. Where is she? When will she come, and bring back my lost smile? Searching for the answers.....

Better future

29th Oct, I am writing this. This date was once more special to me than now. Birthday of a very special one, once. Quite a time has passed now, memories have faded, though not lost; life's back to normal, still, why am I remembering her? A heart that feels alone sometimes, tends to think about the special ones who were once in our lives and with a hope in vain that they might return to us. Wish life were like films, always a happy ending, and miracles happening very easily. Two scorpions, another one's birthday coming soon, bit me hard, still the emotional libran cries sometimes, and misses them. It's still hard to realize that these things have happened to me, and still I do manage to smile, and survive. If one studies my life from beginning till now, it will seem like a Shakespeare's tragedy. Always thinking of a future, better than the present. A future just like my other friends, simple and successful. Believing in the bitter present is hard to swallow, but I don't have any other choice but to live with it. Yes, it's painful, if anytime you have been through heartbreaks. I have been through them 3 times, the new one, a bit severe than the old one.
               I hope that now the life becomes smooth, the good future comes at my doorstep, and I live my life like a normal person. God please, don't make my life more complicated.