Better future

29th Oct, I am writing this. This date was once more special to me than now. Birthday of a very special one, once. Quite a time has passed now, memories have faded, though not lost; life's back to normal, still, why am I remembering her? A heart that feels alone sometimes, tends to think about the special ones who were once in our lives and with a hope in vain that they might return to us. Wish life were like films, always a happy ending, and miracles happening very easily. Two scorpions, another one's birthday coming soon, bit me hard, still the emotional libran cries sometimes, and misses them. It's still hard to realize that these things have happened to me, and still I do manage to smile, and survive. If one studies my life from beginning till now, it will seem like a Shakespeare's tragedy. Always thinking of a future, better than the present. A future just like my other friends, simple and successful. Believing in the bitter present is hard to swallow, but I don't have any other choice but to live with it. Yes, it's painful, if anytime you have been through heartbreaks. I have been through them 3 times, the new one, a bit severe than the old one.
               I hope that now the life becomes smooth, the good future comes at my doorstep, and I live my life like a normal person. God please, don't make my life more complicated. 

My Thoughts

The worst thing abt the past is tht u can't change it. You have to accept the negatives and positives that have occured and move on. What's the use thinking abt what occured was good or bad? Can we go back & change it? Wish we could.. I have many things in my life that I wish I could change.. With the libran and no 6 attraction in my favor, somehow the attraction doesn't carry through long term..
             31 years old, still in search of a true soulmate, who may accept me as I am, with all my flaws and strengths. Many times the rarest things happen to me, and I am back on the same point from which I had started. I guess I am a special n different kind of child of God, n my thinking is different from the traditional thinking. It's hard to bring two persons with exactly the same thoughts together..
            This post is just like a diary.. a flow of thoughts that r crossing my mind currently.  If u happend to come across this post by accident and r bored, u may close it n move to some interesting blog of ur choice. Just tht I felt like expressing my thoughts somewhere n this space seemed good to me. Every1 has sm good frnds n I hv too, bt all r busy in their happy lives n should nt b bothered so late in night.. Just always thinking of a better future, n try to remain happy regardless of the n no of problems currently in lyf.
         Lots of love.