'Friendship often ends in love, but love in friendship-never!'
Said someone. It's heart breaking but true. Love is beautiful but scary. One-sided love is even more scary. I can understand this, because I have been in one sided love for more than one time. What I faced was dejection and loneliness. Friendship is a great thing, but two people of opposite sex, when they are friends, and from one side, the friendship turns to love, then it may hurt. It is not necessary that whom you love, loves you back in return. Even when the heart of both the persons are pure, one of them may do something, that ruins the friendship. I have lost a few of friends like that.
Surviving, working, going through all the ups and downs in life bravely, with a straight face, without a smile, and tears. Saving myself from a mental breakdown. It is easy to say, but tough to implement.
I used to be a very shy guy in my school times. I used to keep things to myself. I didn't interact with much people. More introvert than I am currently. I had a crush on a girl in my graduation. Was scared to tell her. Mailed her once about my feelings, but was a little scared to face her after that. I did some mistakes, and she was out of my life. She was a great friend before that.
Few more incidents like those happened. It hurts me, thinking that no matter how good two friends are, a mistake is all that takes, to break the friendship. A person forgets all good things about that person, and what he/she remembers is only that one mistake.
Then I decided to express my feelings more clearly, to anyone, to avoid living in regrets of not saying it when needed. I didn't know that it would also turn into a regret for me.
I am currently on the verge of losing yet another friend like this. I am going through a very tough time in my life, and no one can realize this unless he steps into my shoes.
Yes, it's no excuse for committing a mistake, but I have realized it, and feeling guilty.
This feeling of guilt is very bad. You may or may not understand it well.
I have not given up. I will not give up. Will fight with the circumstances and emerge as a winner again. Amen.
Said someone. It's heart breaking but true. Love is beautiful but scary. One-sided love is even more scary. I can understand this, because I have been in one sided love for more than one time. What I faced was dejection and loneliness. Friendship is a great thing, but two people of opposite sex, when they are friends, and from one side, the friendship turns to love, then it may hurt. It is not necessary that whom you love, loves you back in return. Even when the heart of both the persons are pure, one of them may do something, that ruins the friendship. I have lost a few of friends like that.
Surviving, working, going through all the ups and downs in life bravely, with a straight face, without a smile, and tears. Saving myself from a mental breakdown. It is easy to say, but tough to implement.
I used to be a very shy guy in my school times. I used to keep things to myself. I didn't interact with much people. More introvert than I am currently. I had a crush on a girl in my graduation. Was scared to tell her. Mailed her once about my feelings, but was a little scared to face her after that. I did some mistakes, and she was out of my life. She was a great friend before that.
Few more incidents like those happened. It hurts me, thinking that no matter how good two friends are, a mistake is all that takes, to break the friendship. A person forgets all good things about that person, and what he/she remembers is only that one mistake.
Then I decided to express my feelings more clearly, to anyone, to avoid living in regrets of not saying it when needed. I didn't know that it would also turn into a regret for me.
I am currently on the verge of losing yet another friend like this. I am going through a very tough time in my life, and no one can realize this unless he steps into my shoes.
Yes, it's no excuse for committing a mistake, but I have realized it, and feeling guilty.
This feeling of guilt is very bad. You may or may not understand it well.
I have not given up. I will not give up. Will fight with the circumstances and emerge as a winner again. Amen.
